in the heat of it all.

Holy Week's over and I'm back in the sweltering heat of Manila after savoring the cool breeze of Tagaytay for 5 straight days. I want to go back there and stand outside at night under the stars- stars that can't be seen from the window here because of all the metropolitan smog. It was a surprise to see hordes of people at Tagaytay Highlands when most of its patrons were absent the past couple of years, probably living their jet-setter lifestyles and traveling abroad. And it was a bit lonely, with the last of the girls (Aileen) sending a goodbye message as she flew to Boracay. Nati, Cel, Terri and Jill are elsewhere. And it's me, all by my lonesome here in Manila.

Argh. I still have to work on the stuff I promised my sister I'd do for her Marketing project. (And yes, she still has classes because of JTA.) Waaah. I'm so tired. I have too little time left to relax. Today, I was "working" from 8 in the morning to 5 in the afternoon. I'm sort of interning at this company that makes all sorts of stuff. It's called Toys By Robin, but they do packaging designs too. Like today, Essh was working on new designs for the Ice Monster bowls. I'm going to be there for the next two weeks. It's been fun though, getting to "render" stuff. Maybe I'll post some of the things I did onto my blog sometime. But for now, I'm just really tired. I have piano lessons tomorrow morning, so I'm going to go to their office after lunch. I've been learning Pachelbel Canon in D, which always seems to be the recital piece for the leading ladies in Korean movies! (examples: The Classic and My Sassy Girl) It's supposed to be a fairly easy song, but it's proving very difficult for my fingers to follow my head! The melody keeps playing inside my head but sadly, my fingers don't seem to be pressing the right keys and the playful tune stays right there in my head while the sounds coming from the piano sound downright ugly. Still, I've only had one hour of lessons, I'll get better... at least I hope so! *laughs*

Listening to: Butch Walker's Mixtape

I don't know why I like this song so much. It's a sad song but, maybe that's how I'm feeling right now? Naahh. Me, sad? *laughs* That hasn't happened in a long and I mean, loooooong time! Which is a good thing, not only good, it's great! *grins* Anyway, still doesn't erase the fact that I'm sleepy. Hmm... somebody's bugging me to stop writing in my blog for now. Sheesh, the only time I get to go on the Internet and he starts shooing me away again. Shoti talaga o, buong araw na nga nasa harap ng computer. Anyway... I have to go! Good night!

first day of summer.

The first day of summer vacation and it's raining... that's odd. Anyway, I'm going to be spending most of the day at home being a complete bum. I'm not too keen on that idea, but half of the day's over and all I've done is get out of bed, take a bath and plop myself down on this computer chair. Yey, shoti and I have been downloading songs like crazy over the past few days so I have around 15 nice songs to listen to over and over again... some are pretty old but since we lost some of the files before we're just downloading them again. For lack of anything better to write, I'm going to put the playlist down here! These are mostly alternative/rock types of songs... with a few exceptions towards the end!

1. Better Than Ezra- A Lifetime (probably the oldest in this list)
2. Dashboard Confessional- As Lovers Go (last summer: Shrek 2)
"You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion but I swear you've got me all wrong... but you've got me."
3. Jimmy Eat World- Work
4. Matt Nathanson- Suspended
"It's not enough to stay awake, torn, braced, cornered and not feel alive."
5. The Calling- Anything
6. The All-American Rejects- Time Stands Still (must be old too)
7. Lifehouse- You And Me
8. Yellowcard- View from Heaven
"If we all believe in heaven, maybe we'll make it through one more year down here."
9. Howie Day- Collide
"I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind."
10. Butchwalker- Mixtape
"No I can't find the words 'cause I lost them the minute they fell out of my mouth."
11. Parokya Ni Edgar- Alumni Homecoming (typical Parokya ni Edgar)
12. Sister Hazel- World Inside My Head
"The path was greener on the one less traveled. That's where I remained."
13. Love.45- Way Down (a bit loud)
14. Low Millions- Mockingbirds
15. 3 Doors Down- Let Me Go (playing on the radio nowadays)
16. Sister Hazel- Your Mistake (at least a year old but still nice)
"I want to be rain that tastes like wine."
17. Missy Higgins- Scar (girly pop)
"I'm a little bit tired of fearing that I'll be the bad fruit nobody buys."
18. Lucie Silvas- What You're Made Of (semi-senti!)
"Just like I predicted, I will sink before I swim."

Ooh, can i share? (Duh, what am I doing writing here if not to share?) *hehe* Anyway, Sir Darwin is an angel! The last accounting test was a bit of a giveaway, I just MIGHT make it to a B! I just hope that as Marts would put it, everything falls into place. And please Sir, don't give me another 1/5 for recitation... although okay, if I do get a mere 1, I guess I deserve it. *hehe* Still, can't blame me for my wishful thinking. I knew I couldn't count on our ethnography to raise my SA grade to an A, but getting a 92 for it ain't bad! So I'm happy. Now it's all about my Economics, Accounting and Filipino grades balancing out and hopefully giving me enough to get on the DL. Look at me, it's summer and I've still got grades on my mind. Iba na talaga ang GC. But I haven't always been like this. I guess the first semester traumatized me. That was such a sorry performance. Anyway, as Terri kept saying yesterday, "Out of sight, out of mind." Put it all behind now. *grins*

looking forward: ang hinaharap

I'm 20 hours away from the test that would decide my fate... I want to make it to the DL so badly, but if I screw up tomorrow, then everything will be for naught. Eeeeep! I don't even know if Sir Bayot would be kind enough to give me an A in Economics. Everything's teetering on the edge right now. I don't really know where I stand anymore. And it's making me soooo nervous, the nail-biting type of nervous that only happens when I'm in Escaler Hall, fidgeting in my seat, staring at my Accounting test, all while twirling my hair. Talk about displaced energy. If only all that fidgeting would make my neurons start firing away. I am so sick of talking about school and worrying about my grades, but sadly, I just can't escape my GC-ness. It's only for another day. Afterwards, I am going to make CHILL my middle name! I can taste the salty seas of summer already.

*to guys who do not want to read about something distinctly female, please skip this part.*

Speaking of summer, I want a new bikini! *hehehe* But then, it's hard to look for bikinis when my frontage resembles a... surfboard. *bleh* Whenever I hear Cel complain about her lack of endowment I can only look down and think "If she only knew..." because if Webster decided to make a fully-illustrated dictionary, my picture would be right there under the word "flat-chested". My genes have failed me. Whereas my sister got lucky in the gene lottery, I got the raw deal. *tsk tsk* Still, as I always say, it's so much better to wear a padded bra than to go and have breast reduction surgery. I should consider myself lucky! *laughs* Still doesn't change the fact that it's hard to buy bikinis though. Anyway...

*resume reading here.*

Instead of again going to China for the May break, we're going to Boracay instead! Yipee! I've been wanting to go back there for a long time. The last time I wiggled my toes in the powdery white sand was in 1995, way before some of the famed establishments today were even set up. So... I'm really looking forward to that trip. I just hope it doesn't get cancelled or anything. For the April break though, my mom's got all sorts of activities lined up for me... I just hope she doesn't give me tennis overload, I've already got varsity training waiting for me. I'm looking forward to taking piano lessons though... learn a few nice pieces over the summer. *flexes fingers* Maybe this time I won't mind dealing with Beethoven anymore. (I used to hate his compositions. They're always sad, creepy and worst of all, hard to play! *laughs*)

like my fave pair of jeans.

You're looking for a Best Friend

There are many different ways to look at relationships, but for you, finding a best friend, the one person you share everything with, is the most important. Some people focus more on the romantic image of a soul mate to last the span of time, but you probably prefer the reality of making the most of every moment of every day. And who better to live those moments with than someone who's true blue through and through?

The ideal match for you is probably someone who can anticipate the next word out of your mouth and who laughs at the punch line before you even tell it. Chances are it's important to you that they'd expand your circle of friends, introduce you to new places, faces, and experiences, too. Whether this relationship is here for the short- or the long- term, you're a take-it-as-it-comes kind of person, with few expectations or fairytales to live up to. You'd take your constant companion and trusted secret-keeper over a fairy princess or Prince Charming, any day. Whether you realize it or not, there's someone out there who feels the same way about you.

This is pretty cool. I always told myself that I wanted someone a bit like a best friend to me when Cupid comes knocking. (Yes, even with my supposed boy-hater streak.) Didn't realize how true these tests could be! It's a bit weird in a way. Why a best friend? For all the reasons already stated in the results above. I don't know why, but I think I'd pick comfort over chemistry any day, (Aileen, remember us talking about this at the bench?) the same way I'd rather wear my favorite pair of jeans than struggle into gorgeous, form-fitting, but highly uncomfortable designer ones. At least that way, you're true to yourself, not having to doll yourself up just to face the world.

jumping on the bandwagon.

I saw this on Cel's blog, she in turn got this from her friend Meme's. She was right, these tests are ego-boosters alright! *laughs* I still don't understand how they make up these answers though. I wonder how many "types" there are. So far, there's Cel's "choosy" and my "desirable." (wahahaha!)

Men See You As Desirable Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual. Your honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in. You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage. Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily. How Do Men See You? Take This Quiz :-)

Ooh, here's another one. I'm white chocolate! I expected to get milk chocolate like Cel did, but it seems we're just two very different people. There are only three types of chocolate though. Milk, dark and white. Right? Or not... Hmm, which should have given me a 33% chance of getting the same thing as Cel... I always thought of myself as a dreamer too, but then again, this is fine too... *grins*

You are White Chocolate You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in.Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you.You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated! What Kind of Chocolate Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

on school, seahorse-chocolates and shopping.

What do you do when you've got too much time on hand?

Well, if you were me, you'd be wasting it all by bumming around as well. I have roughly 60 pages of History handouts to read for our lecture and quiz tomorrow but I have yet to bring out the pages from my folder. I really shouldn't be talking about school again. Sadly, I just have nothing else to write about. And if I do, it would be about things I'd rather keep to myself. Sorry guys. I'm boring the life out of you.

Things at school are looking up though. If rumors are to be believed, Sir Darwin's devising another way of scoring our third long tests. (Yes! It seems I won't get stuck with a 25/100 after all! And yes, my test was that bad.) With the new scoring, all I'll have to do is ace our fourth and final test next Thursday. I doubt I'll be making a repeat performance of our third long test by that time. I'd like to think I've grasped the concept of differential accounting by now! And then there's History class with Ms. Coo. We get to take bonus points based on the number we roll on the 8-sided dice she's bringing to class tomorrow. Whoopee! So long as I don't screw up tomorrow I'm pretty much safe for the exemption. *fingers crossed* Hope whoever rolls that dice tomorrow gets a lucky 8!

Oh yeah, I got swept away with the "Caselet" provided by the real-world case group today. Imagine formulating your own mini-test out of their case! Goodness... It could very well have passed for a sample long test, complete with the spoofed title of "A Very Long Confinement," typical of the trends by which Sir Darwin makes our tests. Who could forget the tests referring to "Troy", "Spiderman" and "Legally Blonde?" Yep, our teacher certainly has a sense of humor. On rare occasions, you might even catch him cracking corny jokes in the middle of his lecture. Remember the proud face he wore when he finished that drawing of the pig he used to introduce the concept of joint costs? It was so funny! He looked like a kid who had just gobbled a handful of M&M's.

Speaking of M&M's. I still have that box of Guylian Perles d'Ocean chocolates in the fridge. Tempting. I think I better grab one of those seahorse-shaped ones now. Isn't it weird though? I haven't exercised much for the last 2-3 weeks, what with tennis training having stopped after the UAAP and the PE classes done and over with, but I've lost 3 pounds over the last 2 weeks, even with all the sinful chocolate I've been stuffing myself with (thanks to a baaaaad but terribly generous benefactor :p ). Of course, that's cool, losing the pounds I gained a few months back, but then again... what's weight if the inches are still there? I am never going to fit into my favorite high school jeans again. *boohoo* That gives me an excuse to buy more new jeans though! *big grin* So... once classes are over I am going to head over to a mall and shop myself silly, until I've exhausted most of the money I've got set aside for clothes. I can't wait!

After the GAP 3 at Dencio's Capitol Hills, after trying on those Bebe Jeans that fit perfectly down to the length, I've realized that perhaps, the perfect set of jeans aren't so hard to find after all. Shopping requires patience after all. Shopping is an art, a science and a sport. It not only practices your mathematical skills (How much are these jeans tagged at P1295 if there's a 20% discount?), it not only sharpens your eyes (Yes, there's still a size S for this shirt!), but shopping helps cut down on calories as well (150-300 calories burned per hour)! Yup, shopping sure has its advantages, the only non-perk of it being the deflated wallets and empty pockets. Of course, it only takes a few weeks or months of saving up to finance the next shopping expedition. And then, malls, watch out! (Goodness, if Cel and Tersh take on a mall at the same time, that mall better be ready alright!) *laughs*