today, i'll be thankful.

The History midterms weren't half bad. Thanks to Cel for telling me about "Great Harmony" while we were reviewing over YM last night! I couldn't stop smiling when I saw it on the test paper, thank God for Cel! *laughs* One point down, 79 more to go!

The test wasn't as hard as I had expected it to be. There weren't any tricky, double-meaning, True or False questions, although Multiple Choice with all the "All these, except one, does not describe today's geisha." type of questions, was pretty confusing. Why not just ask, "Which of these describes today's geisha?" It would sure make life a whole lot easier for us! Teachers... tsk tsk.. always out to make things harder for us! :p

I should probably start writing about something more interesting. I'm starting to get bored with my own blog. And to think I should be my own best fan! Or maybe I'm just my own worst critic. Heh? Am I making any sense? *laughs* What can I write about anyway? Basketball again?

We won against Woozah by the way, by a mere two points, and with a much-debated call in our favor from the referee. MEA All-Stars moves on to the semi-finals! It was a fairly low-scoring game, with the score tied at 2-2 at the end of the first half. Imagine that! The game ended with something like 12-10. It was pretty funny, how we were substituting players depending on who had ball possession. We were putting our players in like we would in American football with an offensive and defensive line-up! That was something different! *laughs* Our next game's on Friday and I'm not sure if I can go, which is sad. There's a supposedly prerequisite talk to be held at about the same time as the game for JTA applicants. Makes me think, forego JTA and play? Or don't play, miss all the intensity, all the excitement, all the hoopla for that talk? Aiyyyeeee. And that's not all, I might have training in the afternoon, too. In that case, goodbye basketball. Priorities first.

Speaking of priorities. I don't know if Vane was peeved with me playing basketball today. Coach Gee said that if he were coach, he'd be inis too. But what the hell, I played earlier, played even more time than they would probably have with them starting at 5. The sun sets at 6. Admittedly, it might not have been enough, but with broken strings after hitting a backhand, and using Cza's racket which I frankly could not quite get the hang of, I'd like to think I had enough space, perhaps even enough reason to play that game today. Of course, I didn't contribute much to the basketball game either, (My shooting was way off.) but that's besides the point.

It just pains me that... I don't know. I love tennis (Yes, I can say that now.) but I don't want it ruling my life. I have other interests, other wants and needs (zzzztt... installing Economics talk.) And just because I love another game, does not mean that I'm not committed to the team. It just annoys me that other people, even people within my own team, could say that about me (or could have said that about me. Doh, big diff.) I want to win as much as they want to. And if they can't see that, then I'm sorry. Think what you want. Basta ako, alam ko ang totoo. I'm tired of worrying about what other people think. Tired of being a doormat, acting as if everything's okay when things aren't. But look what I keep doing. *weak smile*

Ask me and I'll say this angst is stemming from something completely different. But I don't really want to talk about that. And with that, I'll have to keep acting, not exactly because I want to, but because I have to, for the sake of civility. I'm so tired. So tired. Sick of swallowing it all in when I want so much to throw up. *zips lips* I'll shut up now. Don't want to say too much.

Back to happy thoughts now! Things to be thankful for today:

1. I think I did pretty well on the midterms.
2. I did not get cramps during the basketball game!
3. Dinner, with Sweet and Sour Lapu-Lapu and tortang giniling (omelette with ground pork, anyone ever had that before?) was delish!
4. I was able to enjoy a thirst-quenching bottle of Apple Iced Tea!
5. I broke my tennis racket's strings for only the third time in my whole life. (That's a good thing because it's a bit like a status symbol. Break your strings, and it's "Wow, she must hit pretty well." Or maybe that's just me making things up again.)
6. Someone complimented my dribbling! (Before, I fumbled and spoiled my chances of putting up a lay-up during a fastbreak) *smiles sheepishly but is flattered nonetheless* (Not "touched"! hehehe, Marts, wrong word usage nga talaga ako kanina!)
7. I have just written my longest blog entry ever!
8. I will not be missing Hiram tonight! *checks watch* But I have to leave this instant!

*scrambles and leaves computer*